Feelings

Feelings

Let’s dissect some unrequited feelings while addressing the appropriate motive.

 

Imagine you are Simba from Lion King. Imagine that your father, Mufasa, the king is talking to you about all the kingdom that belongs to you. He takes you up to Pride Rock one morning, while everyone else is still asleep.

This morning you couldn’t help but wake him up. The perks of being a child include the utter excitement for life. . . and the reckless abandon for danger.

As Mufasa, your father, describes the entire property you will come to own in detail – “everything the the light touches is yours,” he affirms – you notice the very dark territory that lies beyond. “What’s that?” You wonder…

“You must never go there,” your father says.

But your curiosity is already sparked.

” . . . The heir, as long as he is a child, is no different from a slave, though he is the owner of everything.”

Or as Mufasa said, “There’s more to being king than getting your way all the time.”


Have you ever been lost in a place and getting directions from a person who doesn’t even know where they are themselves?

Recently I went on a trip to Washington, D.C. with my Jesus family. I was intent on getting to the Lincoln Memorial and in the process lost the group. My godsis called to direct me but it was her first time in D.C. too. So she described monuments me to me like I knew where I was and I eventually accepted that I was lost. We met up when it was time to grub.

During the trip, our goal was to find Jesus’ influence in the forefathers.

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Biblical language and reference is littered throughout the Declaration of Independence. Albeit, our forefathers were supposéd Deists, God was still a large part of our foundation as a nation. Lately, that’s been in question.

The Holy Bible exists to serve as reminder of what others went through because of sin. Story after story details how people have come up short, how God still gets the glory and how a life of sin will end no differently for us than it did for the others. Christ came to redeem mankind so that we can live eternally with the Father. The point of this life is not to be successful and die, but to qualify for heaven.

There is a lot more to life than what we live and I would hate to think that men like the Stanford rapist will not get their due justice. Then I have to repent and pray that men like  that would come to Christ in truth, turning away from the fast life.

If we all made it to heaven, that would be fantastic! But it’s our choice whether or not to be faithful to Christ.

God gives us an outline of how to live our lives. That is a part of the Bible’s purpose, as I have come to learn it. There is a right way and a wrong way. There is a God and there is a Devil.

French poet Baudelaire said it best: la plus belle des ruses du diable est de vous persuader qu’il n’existe pas!” 

Translation: “The Devil’s best trick is to persuade you that he doesn’t exist.”

We are creatures swayed by one influence over another. And guess what? If it’s not one, then it’s the other. We ultimately make the last decision. There’s no gray area in life. Indecisiveness is not a way of life, although people work hard to live by decisions others make for them. See, if you won’t make the decision, someone else most certainly will. Yet you will have to bear the consequence of your own life and those decisions.

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While trekking to the Lincoln Memorial, there was a rally of pro-science folk. They had signs like Under God/Under Law. It was quite the scene to bear witness to. The man who rallied these folk interjected some of MLK’s “I have a Dream” style and ended by stating how God would be pleased if we were free thinkers.

My thought . . . I doubt MLK had the same dream as this man – Where people can question God freely and accept science as the only way to teach their children.

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How far are we in the circle of life? 

How do we get back to the bread crumbs Jesus left for us to find our way back home?

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This article was largely inspired by a physicist I just so happened to go on a date with.

He was once a member of the church until lack of proof (or conviction) got the better of him.

Now that the cats out the bag, let’s just delve right in!

When describing a certain instance involving my mother, he was unable to break down the science of the situation . . . I mean, break it down without reasoning that it could only be God. Intuition. That gut feeling. The nausea that accompanies some dark phenomena you feel approaching but you can’t describe how you know. The conviction that comes with innately knowing right or wrong and the immediate justification that follows the decision. You know, it doesn’t always FEEL good to do right. But there’s something in you that knows how right is supposed to be done. Some things are impossible to describe.

Who can ultimately describe the WILL to live?

Now look, I’m a huge lover of science! Teach me physics, throw me some Chem, work some Bio in there and we are good money! When science conquers large concepts, I sit back in awe, fascinated by it all.

Science, in my encounter, never disqualified God’s majesty, only enhanced it.

How amazing are the things we just cannot understand? Like how people transmit thoughts or body language? Like feelings and impulses and miraculous stories? Sometimes, science cannot ask the question, let alone begin answering it. Even doctoring is considered a practice.

“Private Practice Doctors”

“Doctor of Nursing Practice”

It’s all in the name.


Numbers. This same physicists described numbers in an equation to me. There is no real foundation to base numbers on except our own acceptance that numbers are so, he explained. (Similar to how we accept meanings of words but let’s stick to numbers.) Numbers are self-evidently true. How can we truthfully know that 1+1=2? Faith. There’s no way to prove or disprove it yet our science, our formulas, are largely, if not entirely, based on axioms – Number axioms attached to large logical concepts, granted, but follow me for just a moment.

People accuse Christianity of having the same circular reasoning.

We can not study our way to faithfulness. Faith has to be tested to see if it’s real. We can learn about faith in the Bible, this is true. God has only ever enhanced this concept of testing that defines science.

It’s easy to give up on God when you have no standing proof other than your own two legs. Especially when you haven’t witnessed, experienced, or attributed God to the things you cannot explain.

A friend once grabbed my hand and asked, “Is there ever a way you can unmeet me, Erica?”

I looked at him questioningly and said, “No.”

He responded, “that’s how it is with God. Once you have had an experience with Christ, there’s no way you can un-experience that.”

Many people have not acknowledged that moment in their lives.

(Not that it hasn’t happened, it just hasn’t been credited.)
Sometimes you have to hear with someone else’s ears.


Trouble comes in all forms. It’s unexpected. It’s not anticipated and that’s what makes it trouble. There is no time to make preparations while it’s there, only before it comes and then afterwards you deal with what was unforeseen. When a storm comes, there is not much you can do but let it pass. How do we account for the things absolutely out of our control?

God will hold us until the storm passes by. He doesn’t say the storm won’t come.

God will always let us make a choice. He does not hold us captive. We do that to ourselves.

Science is just as flawed as our human mind that works at 13% capacity. And science is just as pretentious as it may accuse to think it can answer life’s mysteries. We will never know all there is to know even if we studied everything that people have known. We just don’t have the brain capacity to get it beyond our natural ability to comprehend.

That God does not exist is a conscience decision meant to overcome the innate conviction in every man (and woman’s) belly.

If you don’t agree, that’s your business.


I know, you’re still wondering, “Where does Simba fit into all of this?”

Think about that moment that you (Simba), along with your playmate, decided to go to the dark territory off limits according to Mufasa. That reckless abandon as a child, more like the ignorance of what danger and death are, led you to some answers you may not be happy about, young Simba. The answer being, the father know best and you deliberately disobeyed him so you are now responsible for the decision you made.

It is the Y.O.L.O. moment witnessed by every child, the domino effect that led to Mufasa’s death.

How did it Domino effect? Simba’s exploration of curiosity opened up the door for someone like scar to plant deceit. He strayed too far from his father’s example. Even as king, Mufasa was not ready to address that his son did not share in his conviction. Mufasa paid for that mistake with his life.

Call me far reaching but Christ paid for our sins with His life. How often do we step outside of His protection, overcome with curiosity about what lies in the dark? How often did Christ take a blow for our foolery?

And for the people that don’t believe in Him, these words will mean nothing to you.

For those that do, if Simba’s example won’t help, imagine Hansel and Gretel but in Christ format. Imagine that a string connects the bread crumbs to life that Christ left behind for us. That string is like a rope. Let’s combine metaphors, here. Let’s say these bread crumbs lead you back to Pride Rock.

Sometimes the same rope you tug to feel for your way back home will be the same rope you use to hang yourself when you have gone too far and have no more hope.

See, pride comes right before the fall.

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